Day Number 5...sort of

So this is actually yesterdays blog. I tried and tried to get on here to post the blog but it wouldn't work for some reason so I had to type it on a word document and save it, but now it works so heres Yesterdays blog...

So today was good...minus the fact that I yet again woke up a bit late for school... That seems to be a regular occurance for me though. Tyler did not have to work for once in his life, so we did quite a bit today. Ate Olive Garden (which totally wan't worth it just as a by the way), and went some other places but nothing was as remarkable as turning off all the lights, lighting candles and slow dancing with him. There's just something about holding him close knowing that this life of ours will be together and hoping that every life that follows he is a part of in some way. Those are the times when I wish I could just pause and stare at that smile he gets, the one when he shows it on his face that he wouldn't trade me for 5 million dollars. Even though I know he never would, but I love it when he shows it with his smile and his eyes. Winter is finally getting to me. Every year I feel the anticipation of wanting the snow because I have good memories associated with winter. And every year I get so sick of freezing and not being able to hike whenever I want, or not being able to have a picnic on a daily basis. This is my last year of school/misery. I have no clue what I want to do with my life thereafter. College, no college? That truely is the question. Somedays I just feel like skipping out. College is over rated right? And other days it seems like the only way. Animals and Nature are my true passions but I can't think of anything I want to do bad enough to go to school for.

Life. Descions must be made.

I said now.

Please Stop yelling.

But he can't and she can't because they are being fueled.

And only when they stop, the world still yells.

Screams coming from the silence.

Silent terror.

Life does not wait so why should you says the sign laying on the dirt by the road.

So Just to be a rebel I stood still.

And now I am not dying anymore.